Thursday 21 February 2008

Monday 18 February 2008

A new life has begun.......

Saturday nite and I excitedly got ready as though I was a teenager going on a first date....do they still do that? ...... anyway, I was nervous but ready to take the adult step of going out .........

ALONE........ I went to the Royal Lyceum and enjoyed the theatre ..........



Six Characters in Search of an Author
by Luigi Pirandelloin a new version by David Harrower


I enjoyed it so much I have booked tickets to ........



The Filmhouse showing a season of films on Afganistan . Stray Dogs.


and......






Be Kind Rewind (12A)

I went to see Michel Gondry's last movie "The Science of Sleep" and loved the way it was filmed so am looking forward to this one!

Sunday 17 February 2008



Tommie Smith (center) and John Carlos (right) showing the Power to the People salute in the 1968 Summer Olympics while Silver medalist Peter Norman (left) wears an Olympic Project for Human Rights badge to show his support for the two Americans.


We all need to think about The Olympic Games in China and about how we as a people treat each other.

Monday 11 February 2008

Washing machines and life.....

Hey there's another weekend gone, now that sounded a bit hohum but hey the washing machine died finally and with 4 adults 3 of whom are male ....... that's a tradgedy! I have another on order .... for Saturday a whole week of dirty washing away!

I also have a ticket ...yep singular, as is my status now, to see Six Characters in Seatch of an Author, on at the Royal Lyceum........ I am looking forward to it .

Scotland's rugby didn't improve on Saturday. June ,Josh and I had a fabby walk in the Botanics on Saturday a glorious sunny day and that was my weekend!

Wednesday 6 February 2008

Waitangi Day



Happy Watangi Day ! It seems to have passed peacefully in N.Z. which has not always been the case.
Anyway to all Kiwi's everywhere have a good day.
I am going to bake some anzac buscuits and celebrate quietly after work.

Monday 4 February 2008

New beginnings follow sudden endings.


Somehow at the age of 51 I had, somewhat naively expected to be done with the teenage angst and pains of lost love...... it seems not. 2008 came in with a cold wind of change for me, and just as in Joni Mitchell's song ... ' as one loves more and more will one love less and less' so it was for me.

That heart searing pain of unrequited love followed quickly by the freefall in selfesteem.

It's funny how everything changes so quickly and that emptiness which is a physical pain takes over every moment....and all the questions ... why ...what if ...



Hey we have been very adult and agreed to 'remain friends' ....... even the word friend takes on a new and bitter meaning.



Now I must rebuild myself and my heart. I know it will be a hard slog, but I have no choice. So what next ?

I have been spending more time with my sons, this has proved to be something I had in fact missed, just having a laugh and passing time together.

I am reading ...... another passtime that had been neglected. A Thousand Splendid Suns was fantastic reading, a Xmas gift from Andy my son.

I have painted my kitchen and feel good about that chore accomplished. I have changed the lightfitting in the bedroom, all the little jobs that were put to the side so I could nurture a love that did not grow.

I am growing stronger every day ....... relapses of pain are still common, but they last for shorter times.

I am waiting for the post and hopefully an interview with Stirling Uni to do a return to Midwifery course which will occupy my mind and body for a while.

Wish me luck.