Love, laughter and life ......: I hold my breath ......

Thursday, 5 June 2008

I hold my breath ......

Today feel as though I am about to cross a bridge in my life ...all roads have led me to this place and I must walk on. I admit I am terrified.

To anyone else it would seem silly to feel this way, after all there is no matter of life or death, but for me it seems that way.
Everything I have known, tomorrow will be tested, my boys, my home, my integrity. Will I be able to step up to the mark and stay true to me? I hope so.

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About me

1. I was born on July 29th
2. That makes me a Leo
3. And a monkey.
4. I live in Edinburgh
5. I am a second child and the baby of the family.
6. I am married to a handsome man.
7. I have four sons.
8. I was born in New Zealand.
9. I graduated as a nurse and a midwife.
10. I came to Scotland in 1980
11. I prefer to be barefoot.
12. I can do more than 1 thing at a time
13. I love autumn.
14. I drink too much coffee
15. I can be very stubborn.
16. I worry too much
17. I love to read.
18. I prefer hard back books
19. I love trees.
20. I practice Shiatsu
21. I love energy work
22. Especially during pregnancy and birth.
23. I hope to never stop learning and growing as a person.
24. I am the godmother of Abbie
25. I am fascinated by Zen
26. I can’t sing.
27. I can be a real pain in the ass.
28. I often laugh.
29. I’m extremely loyal to those I call my friends.
30. I always pick the side of the underdog
31. I have 2 cats and a dog.
32. I used to be in a drama club.
33. I can’t cook, but I love to try.
34. I love really hot showers
35. I have a sister who I love dearly.
36. I miss NZ but would not want to live there.
37. I prefer to write with black ink over blue.
38. I prefer to use a fountain pen to write.
39. I don’t like funfairs
40. I like walks in the woods with my man and my dog.
41. I like foreign language films
42. I can be a bit of a slob.
43. I have had my heart broken too many times.
44. I love poetry
45. I will always be a little kid
46. I still believe in Santa
47. I can feel past life energy in places.
48. I’m getting older
49. I love champagne but I shouldn’t drink it .
50. I have never been on TV
51. I am1st Kyu in karate
52. I won medals for kata & kumite
53. I’ve never been stuck in an elevator.
54. I am not as fit as I would like to be
55. I’m still undecided about what I want to be when I grow up.
56. My first marriage failed.
57. my best friend made me redundant
58. I admit when I’m wrong.
59. I’m a sucker for a cuddle.
60. My middle name is Ann
61. I have had a licence since I was 15.
62. I love spicy food
63. I’m also addicted to Chinese food
64. I try to put others before myself
65. My favorite color is blue
66. I want to learn Italian if anyone offers to teach me.
67. I have a few very very very very close friends.
68. I used to love red wine
69. I love the highlands of Scotland
70. I don’t have a favorite song
71. My favorite movie is Dodgeball
72. After watching it a zillion times, it still makes me laugh
73. I need reassurance.
74. I love my work as a Doula
75. I love walking in the rain
76. I love to see the stars
77. I love Eddie Reader’s music
78. Secretly I love Christmas
79. I’m proud of all of my sons.
80. I will win the lottery one day
81. I want to be remembered.
82. I have not got a will
83. I do have a dream
84. Well more than one
85. I want to travel with Allan
86. I want to live without stress
87. I want to break free
88. I want to die before my children do
89. I’m a morning person
90. I love to hear storms outside when I am safe and warm by an open fire
91. Wish I could play the piano
92. I have a many-faceted personality
93.I love walking on the beach.
94. I can be extremely clumsy
95. I love to dance.
96. I crave sweet things
97. I’ve dabbled with drugs.
98. I am afraid of drowning.
99. I make friends easily
100. I’m fun to be with